Leaving the states

Ok, I guess I can't make entries on a daily basis. I've been so busy with finals that's it's taken over my free time. 

But in other cases, I've come to a realization that college might not be the thing for me. Coming into college I was excited to make new friends and being able to have a new adventure. It turned out that the people I thought were my friends, turned their backs on me. 

The first thing I noticed coming into the States at a social point is that people tend to make friend groups, and if you were part of it when it first started, it's hard to get in it. 
In Europe people tend to be more open to new people and are willing to let them be part of their group. I have family in Italy and we always go back for the long breaks to visit. Every time I go back I manage to meet new people and become part of their group. 

The difference between American and Italian "groups" is that Italians don't consider their friends as a "group". We tend to be open to different people from different cultures and backgrounds. 

This phenomenon in this society has greatly influenced my life and I've concluded that maybe this is not where I belong. Now don't get me wrong, I loved living in the States. There are so many things that have amazed me that Europe couldn't have gotten close to. There are so many things that I've learned here, and I'm one hundred percent thankful for the stay I had. 

I miss my culture and most importantly my family. During my stay here in the States my family lost two loved ones. I only wish I would've spent more time with them and cherish the last moments.
I lost two of my grandparents, both from my dad's side. My family went though a storm of problems following their death and my parents and I couldn't do much to help.
I wish to be able to enjoy the last moments with my mom's side parents. I have a really close relationship with them especially my grandpa. I look up to him and he has inspired me in so many ways. 

This summer I will be going back to Switzerland and stay with a family. I will be volunteering at the United Nations for the third world countries's education. I am really looking forward to be working for them and maybe be able to make a change in the world. I was really lucky to find the person who is the founder of that charity. He doesn't take anyone, he makes really specific selections to whom is going to be helping him. He chose me because my family and him have a strong friendship and because I speak three different languages that needed. 

I hope that I may be able to work for the UN in the long run. If I do well this summer maybe I can get an internship and perhaps find a job! 

Wish me luck!

Peace.